I started this with aplomb, and am determined to finish it, as my writer's block continues its psychotherapy (I continue to call myself a writer :))
Here are my next five exercizes that i will attend to in one breath:
Day 06 – Favorite super hero and why?:
Does Alladin count? He did some really incredible stuff! No? OK, so if we are talking strictly superheroes, I would choose Mr. Incredible :) For those who live in the "real" world, Mr Incredible is an animated big-town man who is a superhero by birth, had incredulous strength and magnificent reflexes, who fell in love with and married "Elastagirl" and they had superhero babies, but he was bound to matrimony and domesticized to a home-at-six desk job, away from his thrilling life. He stayed, furtively, on the crime fighting scene despite his admonishing wife. :) You have to see him squeeze his burly frame into his tiny vestibule of a car and drive to work by day and sneak out at night to crime-fight-cheat his wife by night to love him. :) He's downright adorable. :)
Day 07 – A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on me.
Happily, I do not have anyone like this. :) Everyone ive met and who has made an impact on me has done it in spoonfuls at a time, and impacts have waxed and waned enough to not qualify anybody for this blogpost, no matter how creative i choose to be. :)
Day 08 – Short term goals for this month and why?
Oh, that's easy! I want to plan my first lone-vacation :) And i'm taking one goal at a time, given my habit of piling my plate and running around with it. :)
Day 09 – Something I’m proud of in the past few days.
Oh, I am on my own in a new city, and I'm doing just fine so far. Adventurous enough, cautious enough. :)
Day 10 – Songs I listen to when Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Happy song: Beach boys: Wouldn't it be nice
Sad song: I don't really listen to songs when i am sad. :p Cant answer this honestly.
Bored: The Radio.
Hyper: Jason Mraz (nowadays)
Mad: Again, I don't think i would listen to any song when i am mad, i might just put on music and distract myself with it.
That's five exercizes at one go! :) I'll be back soon, only five to go before I "graduate!" :)
Ciao!
Monday, November 21, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
A habit i wish i didn't have..
I have so many habits i wish i didn't have, it has been quite a task, picking and choosing, while writing this post. But one particular habit that has been annoying me with how pervasive it is in all my thoughts and emotions, is how i stop myself (and now the habit expresses itself as naturally as method) from indulging myself, making myself happy, in ways that are silly or not.
A friend has recently observed that i am quite complacent, and easy to placate, because i don't REALLY want anything, so can do with most things. I suppose that makes me a very accommodating and easy going girl, but i did not like the sound of that. And A lot of profound introspection revealed that I live in a guilt ridden world where pleasures are met with guilt. In my head, everything pleasure inducing is filtered out before it maybe translated to action. I have not yet figured out why (i guess my introspection was not so deep after-all), but i suppose it stems from my natural tendency to keep to myself. I am not expressive and outgoing about my preferences, like i am not forthcoming about myself to most people. I hate to think that my preference might come in the way of what another is thinking or devising. I have been pushing all my desires to the backseat, so far back that now when i turned to find them, i could not locate any that could validate the me that is today.
So here's to dropping a bad habit, getting to know myself, and living accordingly. :) :) and this time, i know i've got it right! :)
A friend has recently observed that i am quite complacent, and easy to placate, because i don't REALLY want anything, so can do with most things. I suppose that makes me a very accommodating and easy going girl, but i did not like the sound of that. And A lot of profound introspection revealed that I live in a guilt ridden world where pleasures are met with guilt. In my head, everything pleasure inducing is filtered out before it maybe translated to action. I have not yet figured out why (i guess my introspection was not so deep after-all), but i suppose it stems from my natural tendency to keep to myself. I am not expressive and outgoing about my preferences, like i am not forthcoming about myself to most people. I hate to think that my preference might come in the way of what another is thinking or devising. I have been pushing all my desires to the backseat, so far back that now when i turned to find them, i could not locate any that could validate the me that is today.
So here's to dropping a bad habit, getting to know myself, and living accordingly. :) :) and this time, i know i've got it right! :)
A picture of me and some friends :)
This is only prt of the exercize; i really do not have a picture with all my friends, but heres two of my forever-girls :)
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
The meaning behind my blog name
When i began writing this blog, it was only for a couple of friends who insisted that i keep writing. We were all in transition: career, further studies, trans-continental shift, marriage! Life had set in, like everyone had said it would, and we weren't going to be around each other anymore. Suddenly everything we had to say to each other, and everyday we spent with each other had become very significant.
And on a parting note, several of my girls told me "keep writing, and keep sharing your writing with us". I had not written for months then, and i hadn't thought i could write again. But they were very effective :) And I created this blog.
I named it "around the world in 300 days" after a very life-altering year, that had morphed me into a new individual who had to determine her identity all over again. But the blog was originally named "inside a yellow rosebud", in cheesy and childish memory of a once-special time that i shared with my best friends forever, there was a once-special boy, and because of him, a yellow rosebud that figured somewhere in the story. :)
I've lived more years since than i've actually grown, but times like those remain a large part of what defines me and my choices. :) So there, that was my blog name, drawn from the purest portion of my life of joy and sharing and believing in forever.
And on a parting note, several of my girls told me "keep writing, and keep sharing your writing with us". I had not written for months then, and i hadn't thought i could write again. But they were very effective :) And I created this blog.
I named it "around the world in 300 days" after a very life-altering year, that had morphed me into a new individual who had to determine her identity all over again. But the blog was originally named "inside a yellow rosebud", in cheesy and childish memory of a once-special time that i shared with my best friends forever, there was a once-special boy, and because of him, a yellow rosebud that figured somewhere in the story. :)
I've lived more years since than i've actually grown, but times like those remain a large part of what defines me and my choices. :) So there, that was my blog name, drawn from the purest portion of my life of joy and sharing and believing in forever.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Much delayed (nods disapprovingly) :(
Why I close this blog window everytime i open it to write eludes me. And in the spirit of the flavor of the season, to js do it, here I am, writing again in the face of the ridiculous inhibition that i have nurtured to write again.
And to keep promises, here is my first exercize in introspect and de-shelling; 15 not known facts about me:
1) i am a control freak; anything going out of control alerts, an SOS within me, and i struggle obsessively to normalize it to what i can only call "the last settings that functioned"
2) I am stubornly resistant to good advise, even when i ask for it, till the time i learn my own lessons.
3) I thrive on change. (so far) when i get too comfortable, i get uneasy, and I want to grow out of it; i call it evolution, and hope that it doesnt call for a survival of the fittest. :)
4) I need hugs like nourishment.
5) I am very receptive to horror movies; even the worse of these movies cleverly nests in my mind with its images and sounds and keeps coming back.. brrr.. :(
6) I NEED something to read in the bathroom; and don't ask me why, i wouldn't know :)
7) I believed, when i was a kid, that there is a monster under my bed, i could never stand next to my bed in the dark because i was SO sure a monster would pull me under with its sinewy arms, well, I still have that fear.
8) I have some kind of deep seated fundamental repulsion for "boy-smells". Very very often i hold my breath in elevators when there is at least one boy in there.
9) I am horrified of elevators, its a fear i have not been able to overcome, i have only leanred to assume the required decorum so i dont appear like a 28-year old retard everytime i get into an elevator.
10) I may have OCD; to me, nothing is ever clean enough.
11) I stay silent in disagreement more often than not, and usually seem to not be affected by how my opinion comes across, i treat my opinions as my own to have, use, and change :) offshoots from the stubborn-ness, but in a good way i guess.
12) Unless if someone is really interesting me, i drift off into my own thoughts while maintaining an impeccable expression of attention and interest, complete with the right noises.
13) I HATE being the centre of attention anywhere at any time no matter how flattering it may seem. I am not asocial, i just lack knowledge of the socially relevant methods that are used to handle attention.
14) I lack any kind of useful wisdom. :( Sad but true. Everything i know is from my own experiences, which have been anything but conventional.
15) I hurt easily, anyone being disappointed in me, angry with me, deceitful, unfair, loud and injurious, caustic, even in the smallest degree, can hurt me very much and very invisibly.
:) And this is the me that some souls on earth know, but some may not. It was hard enough for me to list things about my own self, goes to prove what i always knew, my life always pointed outwards, but 2011 and 2012 are going to be inside me :) cheers to that! more soon (and i mean very soon).
-Simin
Why I close this blog window everytime i open it to write eludes me. And in the spirit of the flavor of the season, to js do it, here I am, writing again in the face of the ridiculous inhibition that i have nurtured to write again.
And to keep promises, here is my first exercize in introspect and de-shelling; 15 not known facts about me:
1) i am a control freak; anything going out of control alerts, an SOS within me, and i struggle obsessively to normalize it to what i can only call "the last settings that functioned"
2) I am stubornly resistant to good advise, even when i ask for it, till the time i learn my own lessons.
3) I thrive on change. (so far) when i get too comfortable, i get uneasy, and I want to grow out of it; i call it evolution, and hope that it doesnt call for a survival of the fittest. :)
4) I need hugs like nourishment.
5) I am very receptive to horror movies; even the worse of these movies cleverly nests in my mind with its images and sounds and keeps coming back.. brrr.. :(
6) I NEED something to read in the bathroom; and don't ask me why, i wouldn't know :)
7) I believed, when i was a kid, that there is a monster under my bed, i could never stand next to my bed in the dark because i was SO sure a monster would pull me under with its sinewy arms, well, I still have that fear.
8) I have some kind of deep seated fundamental repulsion for "boy-smells". Very very often i hold my breath in elevators when there is at least one boy in there.
9) I am horrified of elevators, its a fear i have not been able to overcome, i have only leanred to assume the required decorum so i dont appear like a 28-year old retard everytime i get into an elevator.
10) I may have OCD; to me, nothing is ever clean enough.
11) I stay silent in disagreement more often than not, and usually seem to not be affected by how my opinion comes across, i treat my opinions as my own to have, use, and change :) offshoots from the stubborn-ness, but in a good way i guess.
12) Unless if someone is really interesting me, i drift off into my own thoughts while maintaining an impeccable expression of attention and interest, complete with the right noises.
13) I HATE being the centre of attention anywhere at any time no matter how flattering it may seem. I am not asocial, i just lack knowledge of the socially relevant methods that are used to handle attention.
14) I lack any kind of useful wisdom. :( Sad but true. Everything i know is from my own experiences, which have been anything but conventional.
15) I hurt easily, anyone being disappointed in me, angry with me, deceitful, unfair, loud and injurious, caustic, even in the smallest degree, can hurt me very much and very invisibly.
:) And this is the me that some souls on earth know, but some may not. It was hard enough for me to list things about my own self, goes to prove what i always knew, my life always pointed outwards, but 2011 and 2012 are going to be inside me :) cheers to that! more soon (and i mean very soon).
-Simin
Friday, January 14, 2011
letter to me
So,
Its been over a year since i shared something here. Perhaps there wasn't anything really worth sharing, or perhaps it was a verbal inadequacy, for all that could have been written. Anyhow, I burned out all the lame excuses that kept presenting themselves, and got to the real reason: I am Lazy. And I am not proud!
Today i though, what the heck, here it goes: an overwhelming multitude of unprocessed thoughts, that i have been rudely piling on my previously categorized musings making me quite the knot.
Gathering the bearings of my rusted introspection, and with a desire to absolve myself of some suspect intentions that have come with being in the "big bad world", I take a few snap shots in rear view.
In most of my past year mental images, I see myself with a bewildered heart dangling from my sleeve, and i am surprized by it! Here i was thinking that I am learning the art of smooth pretention and finer social skills, but I have been more impulsive and undecided in the last year than I have ever been. 2010 was a year of defeated philosophies, unchanged faith, renewed spirit, and rounding off of my external being.
I learned that everubody who smiles does not really mean to, that compassion is a rare quality to find, that being unaware is a very limiting handicap, that trust is not so easy to give anymore, and that I am three very well segregated people congruently placed in one mind, in a constant state of conflict (I extrapolate this to growing up to adulthood).
And that I have very frequent writer's blocks. (i will pretend to be a writer here :))
So, before I burn holes in my mental web with sudden and unaccustomed introspection, i though i could delve into some spots of thought that could jog my mind into this direction and that. Call it warm up if you wish! I borrowed this from another blogger, as an exercize, beginning soon :)
Day 01 – 15 not known facts about me.
Day 02 – The meaning behind my blog name.
Day 03 – A picture of me and friends.
Day 04 – A habit that I wish I didn’t have?
Day 05 – A picture of somewhere I’ve been to.
Day 06 – Favorite super hero and why?
Day 07 – A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on me.
Day 08 – Short term goals for this month and why?
Day 09 – Something I’m proud of in the past few days.
Day 10 – Songs I listen to when Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.
Day 11 – Another picture of me and friends.
Day 12 – How did I find out about Twitter and why I’m on it?
Day 13 – A letter to someone who has hurt me recently.
Day 14 – A picture that says a lot.
Day 15 – Put iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play?
Day 16 – A picture of me.
Day 17 – Someone I would want to switch lives with for one day and why?
Day 18 – Plans/dreams/goals I have?
Day 19 – Nicknames I have; why do I have them?
Day 20 – Someone I see myself marrying/being with in the future?
Day 21 – A picture of something that makes me happy.
Day 22 – What makes me different from everyone else?
Day 23 – Something I crave for a lot?
Day 24 – A letter to the parents?
Day 25- What would you find in my bag?
Day 26 – What you think about you are your friends?
Day 27 – Why am I doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28 – A picture of me from last year and now, how have I changed since then?
Day 29 – In this past month, what have I learned?
Day 30 – Who am I?
Until then!
Its been over a year since i shared something here. Perhaps there wasn't anything really worth sharing, or perhaps it was a verbal inadequacy, for all that could have been written. Anyhow, I burned out all the lame excuses that kept presenting themselves, and got to the real reason: I am Lazy. And I am not proud!
Today i though, what the heck, here it goes: an overwhelming multitude of unprocessed thoughts, that i have been rudely piling on my previously categorized musings making me quite the knot.
Gathering the bearings of my rusted introspection, and with a desire to absolve myself of some suspect intentions that have come with being in the "big bad world", I take a few snap shots in rear view.
In most of my past year mental images, I see myself with a bewildered heart dangling from my sleeve, and i am surprized by it! Here i was thinking that I am learning the art of smooth pretention and finer social skills, but I have been more impulsive and undecided in the last year than I have ever been. 2010 was a year of defeated philosophies, unchanged faith, renewed spirit, and rounding off of my external being.
I learned that everubody who smiles does not really mean to, that compassion is a rare quality to find, that being unaware is a very limiting handicap, that trust is not so easy to give anymore, and that I am three very well segregated people congruently placed in one mind, in a constant state of conflict (I extrapolate this to growing up to adulthood).
And that I have very frequent writer's blocks. (i will pretend to be a writer here :))
So, before I burn holes in my mental web with sudden and unaccustomed introspection, i though i could delve into some spots of thought that could jog my mind into this direction and that. Call it warm up if you wish! I borrowed this from another blogger, as an exercize, beginning soon :)
Day 01 – 15 not known facts about me.
Day 02 – The meaning behind my blog name.
Day 03 – A picture of me and friends.
Day 04 – A habit that I wish I didn’t have?
Day 05 – A picture of somewhere I’ve been to.
Day 06 – Favorite super hero and why?
Day 07 – A picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on me.
Day 08 – Short term goals for this month and why?
Day 09 – Something I’m proud of in the past few days.
Day 10 – Songs I listen to when Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.
Day 11 – Another picture of me and friends.
Day 12 – How did I find out about Twitter and why I’m on it?
Day 13 – A letter to someone who has hurt me recently.
Day 14 – A picture that says a lot.
Day 15 – Put iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play?
Day 16 – A picture of me.
Day 17 – Someone I would want to switch lives with for one day and why?
Day 18 – Plans/dreams/goals I have?
Day 19 – Nicknames I have; why do I have them?
Day 20 – Someone I see myself marrying/being with in the future?
Day 21 – A picture of something that makes me happy.
Day 22 – What makes me different from everyone else?
Day 23 – Something I crave for a lot?
Day 24 – A letter to the parents?
Day 25- What would you find in my bag?
Day 26 – What you think about you are your friends?
Day 27 – Why am I doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28 – A picture of me from last year and now, how have I changed since then?
Day 29 – In this past month, what have I learned?
Day 30 – Who am I?
Until then!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
